September 30, 2011
-
waiting it out..... still
Ok, I'm not used to being sick! Pregnant? yes, nursing? yes, sick for a long spell? no... So this is trying to my soul. I have been told to rest and wait, that things would resolve themselves in 4 weeks to 6 months! wow, all the things I can sit here and think of that I NEED to do, it's mind blowing! My children were already great babysitters, but I teach school, I cook, I clean, I drive... I shop... and here I sit.
I am learning more patience, I am learning great sympathy for those who have even more dire conditions than mine (or even more permanent!)... I am learning to seek Christ for directions on what to do each minute of the day, (is that really one of the prayers I prayed back when?) and I'm learning to ask in prayer for each thing/word to speak, say, or do.... it's great in some ways!
Answered prayer is pretty thorough, isn't it??
Ok, so how can I learn this lesson as quickly as possible, so I can get onto something else??
Now I have to pray for my attitude too! I'm so glad it never ends.
Lord, Your mercies and new every morning and Your longsuffering is from everlasting to everlasting... I'm so grateful! o/
Comments (27)
I hope you feel better soon. Got a link re: what's wrong?
was not aware you had a prolonged illness. feel better soon
@DivaJyoti - Thanks for the kind thoughts. got a link??
@buddy71 - it's more a recovery from the damages of a bout I had four years ago... trying sometimes. Thanks.
@Tempguestbrief - What I meant was, have you blogged a blog telling us what your ailment is, and if so do you have a link because I'd like to read about it. I'm an older Xangan, not always well myself, so I try to support other Xangans who are ill for any reason at all.
@DivaJyoti - ahh I see. No, I don't think I've explained it out completely. I hate going into details about myself but sometimes I have to vent a little. It's a bunch of little things really, but it's all going the right direction at the moment. ...I think... lol thanks really
@Tempguestbrief - OH, OK I know what you mean about a bunch of little things. It can really add up and be very tiresome and frustrating.
I try to be careful about what I pray for. The mechanisms to accomplish something you ask for could be terrifying.
@blonde_apocalypse - That is true, some things are worth it though.
you can do it I have faith in you and I'm here if you need someone to talk to
@passions_trapped - Thanks, that's kind of you.
@Tempguestbrief - God made me gracious I'm here to help all those in need of a friend
@passions_trapped - are you Zoie? I'm glad to have you come by.
@Tempguestbrief - Everyone calls me Chloe, Zoie is my real name but I don't use it much anymore. Happy to be here
I was sick a couple of months ago, and was actually bedridden. The doctors told me that I should o.k. within a few months. And believe me, I know exactly how you feel. I just hated being in bed, and not being able to move around. It drove me crazy. So hugs to you, hope you get better soon.
i hope things keep going in the direction to better health!! i hate being sick too!
I didn't know you were dealing with sickness. Now that I do, you are in my prayers (specifically for this).
@stephensmustang - thank you!! It's been four years... things are better now than they were but I'm still dealing with things like muscles that don't want to work because they've been in low use for too long... I'm doing rehabilitative exercise to try to get back to normal but its slow. I still have children and their homeschooling to deal with too. Thats why I've been on xanga and facebook so much. It has deffinitely filled a hole.
So sorry to know you're battling long-term issues. Do take care, and feel better soon -- you'll be in my thoughts!
@Mal_P - @windupherskirt - thanks girls! <3
The photo is beautiful...calm and peaceful. I love the colors in it.
I didn't know you were fighting anything long term. It sure takes a toll on a body when it goes on for such a long time. I hope you continue to heal in a way so that you can see you're making progress. Sometimes just seeing a small difference can mean so much. I will keep you in my prayers.
@songoftheheart - thanks very much!! I hate to complain as it's not nearly as much as some people deal with.
I think it's mostly going in the right direction. I love those beach pix, my dear husband took it. 
sorry! when I broke my arm a year ago and if I dressed myself and realized it was on inside out or whatever-I would just say,"this is the way it's going to stay cause it was so much work to get it on." Really I said ,"the hell with it." lol
my cat and I learned patience the hard way....we lived in the "mobile home" for 11 and 1/2 months...but the wait was so worth it to get a place to call my own...but even now He is still working on me...I'm not quite settled in yet and now the medical issues raise it's head...but this too shall pass one day at a time...I love the picture up there it is so calming...when my Scrooge left for heaven I pulled out 2 of my mothers pictures that show the ocean...it is so calming...I hope and pray that you get better soon...sometimes He takes His time and not ours to do his work in us...oh and my Nana taught us from an early stage "be careful what you pray and wish for...you just might get it and it might not be what ya wanted in the first place...smile
Sorry you have been sick. Hope it passes quickly. But it is good that you are getting closer to your maker.
I hope you are well sooner and not later. *fingers crossed
My soul knows the frustration that can come along with limitations. But like you, I have discovered, there is much beauty in the suffering.